Friday, June 20, 2008

Life is the Movies, Without Popcorn

I missed posting anything yesterday, and I'd like to say I was busy, but I wasn't. I was resting and visiting with my oldest son (he came for a visit). It is always a pleasure for me when my sons come to visit me. The are so smart and wise way beyond their years. I wonder where they got it from... lol...

I watched a couple really strange movies yesterday. Strange in a not very good way. One was a Asian movie called "The Suicide Circle". Upon asking me why I would watch such a thing I would have to say curiosity got the best of me. The story itself was an interesting one. The making of the movie could have been better though. It was very strange indeed, not something I would watch twice, in fact I wouldn't have watched it once if I had know how bad it was really gonna be. I have included a clip of it that I found on youtube. I must warn you though it is really stupid and it's no wonder teens do dumb things if they watch movies like this.

I am a movie buff and enjoy the entertainment. I have a low tolerance for bad acting or weak story-lines. I am not into horror because usually it is pretty lame. I can't remember the last time I watched a movie that really frightened me, which is good. I guess once you start studying special effects and such, movies loose some of the drama. So it has to have a good storyline or I get distracted easily.

Life is like a movie. We all have our parts to play. We can change what part we want to play at any time. I myself have changed my part hundreds of times. Each part sends me into a new chapter of my life. But as I have aged I have found that playing the part in a drama is not for me. My life is more of a comedy/character study type movie now. The good thing about this realization is that now I can watch the movie you are playing in.

I have found that looking at life like this has helped me a great deal. Especially when it comes to anger. I don't have to carry stuff around from scene to scene. Once the scene is over it's over and replaying it only reminds me how badly I played my part. You know how it works, you scream, you cry, you pout... who wrote this into your play? Well honestly you did, and I did it in my life too. I am not saying it will never happen again, it's just I no longer want to play a part like that anymore.

"All the worlds a stage..." -- Shakespeare

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Positive Words to Each Other

I was just thinking how many verbal expressions we say that we don't even think about. Just off handed remarks that so many of then aren't even relative, or logical, or smart. Some of it is slang, and some of it is things we have been programmed to say. "Buzz off", "Bite Me", "Your breaking my back", "Go away", just to mention a couple so you know what I am talking about.

If I had know what I know now in life I would never had said anything about anything when it comes to breaking backs. I actually ended up with a broken back!! I honestly believe that what we say often will create itself in our lives. I have said one two many times, "Won't they just leave me alone", or "I need some alone time", and here I am alone, except for my computer. It's a good thing I like my alone time, there is no place like home.

I brought this up cause I see so many people living in negative situations. They are often created because verbally we put it out to the universe. The universe hears us and responds. You don't see to many people saying positive expression with as much energy that we put into the negative. It is more often said, "Everyone hates me" than "Everyone loves me".

We need to confirm and affirm the positive in our lives. Edify those around us. Create the world peace we so desperately proclaim that we want. If you can't quit fighting with friends and family, then how the heck are we gonna get the whole world to agree to not fight. We have to start somewhere and it might as well be in our homes. Which makes me ask, and have been for some time, "If peace is what we want then why are we fighting -- it...".

Will write more later...

Monday, June 16, 2008

A Sunny Day

Sunshine outside is nice, and today it is sun-shining here. Just as important is sunshine inside of my heart, mind, and soul. We all have our down moments but what we do with those moments is important. As an individual it is important for me to take responsibility for my actions, but also for my thoughts.

Global consciousness says that we are to act in a certain way. When most things end we are suppose to be mad, angry, or some other negative emotion. This is to no one persons fault, it comes after a lifetime of conditioning from many sources. This conditioning shows up in every aspect of our lives. To change these behaviors and ways of thinking take a lot of courage, especially if you have never spoken up. The world tends to discourage independence while at the same time telling you that you to be independent.

Part of what I see in the world, and what I have experienced in my own life, is what they are now (in 2008) terming as"Dumbing Down". You will see me use this term a lot in my blog. I cannot generalize this term, it is to complex, but it has a lot to do with letting other people control our lives. I realized that the ultimate dumbing down of me was to let others run my life and as long as I let myself get upset, in any way, by any one, "They" had control.

The same works for happiness. No one can make me happy except me. Oh, I may be happier if I am with you, and I may be happier if situations improve, but it is my mind that the choice is made. When I laugh it is because I am entertained,that is why I can be happy watching a comedian, or when my sons do something silly. Some people search for happiness in the strangest places.

Have you ever had the uncontrollable urge to laugh when you weren't suppose to??? I have and it can be quite a disaster. You are not suppose to laugh in some situations, but everyone has their moments. Which was a horrible moment for the fellow in the video below.

Many people don't want the responsibility for the situations they are in. It always seems easier to blame someone else. I did this for a long time. In fact just a few years ago I quit referring to my childhood because I realized that by continually bringing it up I was blocking myself from going forward. I do want to be the beast me I can.

Now at first hand this may seem silly, but it's not. When trying to change people get upset, and I don't mean the person that is changing. It is the world around them. People will try to guilt you, or put fear in you to stop you from changing. They are use to you the way you are. I cannot even begin to tell you how many people in my life that accused me of stupidity, selfishness, insanity, all because I wanted a better life. People directly attacked me. Now that I speak up for myself it doesn't happen. Behaviors speak volumes and the people in my life now know that they can't get away with it.

The core of me now stems from me, not how anyone wants me to be. As a result I am stronger. It has taken a lot of work. I have learned to laugh at myself, because honestly some things are just worth laughing at. This again I had to learn. I use to get upset when someone would do something that I thought was a insult, and it may have well been, BUT what I chose to do with it. So what I have learned is everyone has their opinion and I don't have to get upset by that. It doesn't mean I have to like it but I can accept that now.

Do It Now

Well "they" say there is no time like the present, so I am posting the first blog on my new site. I am looking forward to this because I like sharing with other people. I also enjoy learning about others and what they believe. This contributes to my personal growth. As painful as that may be sometimes I still enjoy it. Usually it all turns out for the best in one way or another.

Humor is a key element in growth and I believe that it is the more enjoyable way on the path I am taking. Sometimes I get much to serious, but thats ok as long as I don't stay there forever. Feel free to share with me your insites and places you have been in life, because I will be sharing with you. I may not always agree with people but I am willing to listen and explore new ideas and thoughts. I am not always right, people make mistakes and last time I checked I was one of those people.

I feel that by doing this blog that I am making a giant leap in the growth of my esteem and worth and that it will be very worthwhile to me. Sharing what I have learned and how life is changing day to day gives me the opportunity to progress even further. The topics will be varied, change, responibility, emotional issues etc... I will do my best to keep it varied so no one gets bored.

With that said I hope everyone that reads this has the best possible day they can...